I figured if I couldn't have an attempt this month, then the dr would want me on birth control pills to make sure that the ovaries stay clean and no friendly cysts appear. When I spoke to a nurse, she was like "well, do you want a pill so your cycle will start?" Umm, hello? That would have been nice to know a week ago. But then I started thinking...would I really want to try a cycle when my body wasn't actually ready? To me, it seems like forcing a cycle upon my body wouldn't be good. So in a way I was glad I didn't know about the option earlier. At least I didn't have to make a decision.
I do need to call next week if AF hasn't shown. Then I will at least get the bcp should it start on vacation (which would royally suck).
Can I tell you how glad I am that I expressed shipped the meds here from Europe and paid an additional $50 to make sure they were here? Because right now they are sitting on my table mocking me. Oh well.
Nothing else is new. I did throw boring guy back into the pond. I will let some other woman try him out. He was very nice, but CHEAP. I can put up with a lot, but cheap can't be overcome. Besides, I was actually a bit freaked out that he didn't mind my whole baby quest. How stupid is that? I would be crushed if I really liked someone and he ran when I told him what I was doing, yet I run when some guys embraces it. Hmmm. If I saw a therapist they would have a field day with that one.
I still feel very positive about the next try...lord knows my credit card needs a break. My donor 2480 is expensive! Maybe I should have visited the bar of desperation and tried the natural route....naaahhh. I don't think I can spin that for when my child asks about their dad. At least this shows how desperately I want that child. The other way just makes me look a bit too easy. :)
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LOL - bar of desperation. keep your head up!
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