Some Hope

My dr says everything looks good.  I ordered my meds and am waiting for my cycle to start.  I am truly hopeful for this cycle to work.  I don't know if that is good or bad, but I am feeling good about it.

I have found a website that has been a godsend - www.justmommies.com and use the boards for pregnancy loss.  What wonderful ladies.  They have given me a measure of peace about all that has happened.  Maybe I have experienced this so many times I am finally getting used to coping with it.  I don't know, but it helps.  To share with other women who have been through the same thing - to learn from them and share my thoughts has been incredible.

This is what I feel right now - who knows if it will change tomorow.  With each loss, we learn.  Through all the grief and guilt, we gain.  We may find an unknown inner strength, more compassion or a greater appreciation for all we do have (and what we will one day have).  Each of my losses changed me into the woman I am today.  And while I may not have had my angels for long, they somehow, in some way, made me a better person/sister/friend/daughter.  I can only pray they will also make me a better mother in the future.