I miss my babies. Today is a bad day. I blog surf and one of the sites I found was talking about a recent miscarriage. And it just hit me, again, how much I will never know. I will never know their smiles, their personalities, their hair or eye color. I will never know the pure joy of a sweet little voice calling me mommy. I will never get to cuddle them when they are crying or be frustrated when they won't sleep. I will never feel their little arms giving me a hug.
Oh God, I miss my babies. I believe they are all in heaven. On the blog, the woman said she was mad that the angels got to see her baby first. And I completely understand. I am still mad - and sad and broken. Sometimes, it is ok. Sometimes, I can get through weeks without crying.
Today is not a good day.
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